There was nothing specifically about today that made me do it, it was just tonight the pressure got too much. It had been building, I knew it would happen, I've been feeling like I dunno like I'm suffocating under all these suppressed emotions for a while now, and the tears just wont come, but I feel them I truly and deeply feel them on the inside bleeding away in my soul. I definitely feel them. It's torture walking around with such deep dark almost sinister feelings of pain, hurt and confusion. I just have this deep bleeding pain on the inside and I just don't know why I feel this way and the pain
gets deeper and darker, yet still the tears won't come, every minute of everyday so close to tears but the pain is so deep and so raw there is no release. So I took the razor to my bare skin, pressed down and finally the tears I have been crying so heavily on the inside finally slipped through the cut in my flesh and began to pour on the outside. With each tiny little slice in my skin little trickles of the beautiful crimson tears, seeped through and with each trickle of blood I cried 50,000 tears, the tears I cannot cry.