8/26/04

Oh my f-cking God. Grandma died! Why oh my god. and Jacob likes Kelsey! dandy! my week has been just f-cking great! G-ddamnit!

10/12/04

Recently in my world: I found out Jacob "loved" me. we made out and now I hope he dies! On sunday i hung out with Krysta and Brittany. we went to her apartment and did some dumb stuff. then yesterday i missed school and I cut my arms because I exploded with anger and now my arms sting extremely! I even have my own noose set up in my closet. for when i get pissed off at myself and the world. i don't intend on killing myself but i want to scare myself so yeah.

10/16/05

f-ck her. i'm so sick of this shit. I need Robert like a f-cking rehab patient needs drugs, but he doesn't want me anymore. I can't handle this emotional turbulance that is love. I want him so bad that it physically hurts, on my skin. I can't live like this. F-ck it.

*notice the long period between entries. i assure you there were many in between, but these are the most significant.