the reasons for self hurt are perennial
when my beast wants to play he has me
thinking it's because the world is wrong
and it is, I seek salvation in love
and in any reason to live
but sometimes it's a lost love turned, obsession
that triggers these behaviors in me
sometimes it's just the doubt and distrust
that has me cold and alone
I am my own saboteur
I have not hurt my self in such a long time
and I kind of refuse too no matter how down I slide
the only option I ever see is suicide
like if I refrain from self pain then one day all the
stored energies of my self hurt will give me enough strength
to take my own life
love and honour.

soldier