Consumed by it, haunted by it and scared by it.
This pain reliever I thought of has drawn me in
I am officially addicted now,
I am an addict.
Talked about only in reference of being insane
the one thing everyone fears
is now my only way of life
people don't understand the wanting or needing I have for it
It's almost like I have no life now
I am a prisoner to cutting
this addiction will not stop and I fear it
I have given in to its calling
there is no cure I have found out the hard way
I am all alone in this
On my own
But there is one thing
one way of escaping all of this madness
I don't see how I could have missed this before
It's so simple
I have finally figured out why this way of life has chosen me
to help me
to instantly take my pain away to a place where only the two of us, my blade and I exist
the result of him may not be pretty,
but it's the only way I have of expressing my feelings
the only way to let it all out
no one suspects the quiet ones like me