Well it has been a hard time, but I am now SI free. I haven't cut in about 7 months I think. I have a great reason. I am pregnant. I am due any day now. It was hard to give up but then I realized what I was gaining. I was given a second chance to be happy. I got married to a understanding and wonderful man. He is beautiful in every way. He never gave up on me through it all. I never thought that I would get over it. When I found out I was pregnant I had cuts on my body and it made me feel horrible. I had a child inside me. A child inside given to me by the love of my life. I had to make a decision that changed me. I knew that if I continued to cut me and my husband would have some problems. He has a say with what I do with my body, part of him is inside me. I talked to him awhile ago and he confessed on how much I hurt him when I did that. I never knew how much I hurt him. I cut in front of him towards the end, when it got real bad, because I was afraid that I would go to deep. He would wipe my blood off me and hold me. It was bad for him and I never knew because I was worried about my next series of cuts. He actually had to take me to the hospital because I overdosed on a stupid antidepressant and cut all over. He carried me in the hospital because I passed out or blacked out. It hurt him so bad and I never knew. I love him so much and I know if I started again that he would leave me or we would have really big problems. He loves me so much and I love him so much. I know that it was worth it though. He and my daughter are worth giving up everything. It is hard, but it is getting easier every day. I know that someday I will wake up and not think about it and that will be a good day.