The scars feel as though they burn
Plain for all to see
And I feel an overwhelming contempt
For this girl known as me
Hatred taking over my mind
Fear rushing through my head
All the angry, frightened words
Are fighting to be said
All of this pain focuses back on me
For deep run the scars of my iniquity
The self-inflicted wounds are mostly ignored
People don't want to get involved
So as I silently scream for help
I watch people choose to absolve
To separate themselves from me
To stay a safe distance away
Because it's too much trouble to bother with
To listen to what I have to say
Mottled blues and grays
Are the colors in my life
Nothing seems to be for sure
There is no black or white
I can find no love for myself
No reason that anyone should care
Yet what I desperately need and want
Is for someone to just be there
What is this truth
To which you have eluded?
And why is it that in my life
All joy has been excluded?
Is this something that I should have known all along?
Is there a reason why I'm forced to act so strong?
I won't be able to keep this up much longer
It's too hard to keep up this act
How do I begin to make up
For the knowledge that I obviously lack?
I'm just a kid in a grown up world
And I'm expected to perform
To learn to show them what they want to see
To learn the rules and then conform
To learn the guilt that they inflict
On those who don't follow their rules
Pain inflicted, damage done
Thank you painful, lonely school
The scars are burning into my soul
Because I know why they're there
But no one else appears to notice
Or if they do they don't care