i need to try to try to escape to put an end to all of this i know i can i know i could if i could only leave it all behind and not wallow in it and not stay up till four AM on school nights on NEVER oh if i could only want to leave to want to be someone and accomplish all i really know i could but all i want is this pain this pain is turning dangerous this pain is no longer simply hurting but this pain is becoming madness and i cannot lose my mind its all i have i need it and its what i dont want to lose i want to lose my happiness and i did and i want to be in hospitals and i can i was i will be but oh i dont want to lose my mind i need to stop it can i yes but will i i should think so i need help ill ask for help and be ok and be so sane and not be up at four AM on school nights on NEVER i will put an end to this run-on madness of my life before it runs ahead of me i will put a period at the end and i will stop it have it be a sentence that is finished not a sentence i am serving i will capitalize myself and my importance make me important someday i will. I will.

ITS ALL BECAUSE I HAVENT CUT ISNT IT I NEED IT I NEED IT I NEED THE CUTTING TO KEEP ME SANE I MUST DO IT NOW AND THEN MAYBE I CAN BE OK

~I NEVER KNEW I NEEDED IT SO MUCH~