I’m silent but I’m screaming
Smiling but I’m weeping
You see something enviable
But I just hate it all
I’m smart but I’m being dumb
Why won’t anyone come
To save me from myself today
It’s always been this way
Since when is understanding so hard
Should I write a postcard
From the place I am, hell
I think I might as well
We’re all liars in this place
And I’m coming last in the race
I’m doing it by myself
Even though you all helped
I can smell sweet things burning
Inside I’m always yearning
For something I can’t name
Death and happiness has become the same
What I could once do
My skills have all faded
Who did I give them to?
For what pitiful things I traded?
All I got are these scars
Inside and outside painful bars
To carry me on through
Because nobody knows what to do.
I’ll hide these words from you
And I hope you’ll keep them
And so maybe they’ll hurt you too.