If I could lay down
And curl up in a ball
And not make a sound
And escape from it all

Then I would be happy
To flee my foul life
I would be so happy
I wouldn't think twice

But I sit in my room
Go back to my own ways
I fear I am doomed
For the rest of my days

I wish I could stop
I know that I must
So I don't have to mop
The results of blood lust

But when nothing else helps
Everything else is just pain
I must damage myself
But it's all just in vain

I end up feeling bad
I shouldn't have given in
My loved ones are sad
Because I let myself win

Here always, forever
The markings still show
They will disappear never
And show red through the snow