I’m being haunted by my past
A fog of memories
Shutting out the light.
It won’t leave me in peace:
The things I used to think about,
The way I used to be when
No one was looking.
How can I get rid of it?
It won’t leave me alone.

It always comes back to haunt me,
Just when the curtain is beginning to rise.
When the light is beginning to break through:
But it never stays for long,
The rays aren’t strong enough,
The crack in the door too small.
I’m still trapped!

How can I go on like this?
They have got to go away soon;
The old thoughts that enter my mind uninvited
As I am about to rest.
The old feelings that well up in my soul
Choking the happiness I’ve battled
So hard to grasp; suffocating me.

They rid me of my power
My will to battle on
I can’t deny my past
Can’t pretend I haven’t lived
Maybe I could talk about it
How could words suffice?
How can I express the confusion?
If I reveal myself
I make myself bare,
Too vulnerable!

I’m all alone to fight
This battle; The battle
Of my life.
Sometimes I feel too weak;
Too tired.