There once was a day
before I turned five
when the world held such promise
and I felt so alive

There once was a day
before my innocence was lost
when I loved him so much
but it was all at so high a cost

There once was a day
when I looked at him with pride
he told me he treasured me
but it was nothing but a lie

There once was a day
when my body felt whole
it was mine to do with as I pleased
but to hurt me was his goal

There once was a day
when I felt safe in my home
but now as an adult
I feel completely alone

There once was a day
when my life seemed to matter
maybe I had purpose
but that belief has been shattered

There once was a day
when I used to feel good
but you took it all away
now I only wish I could

There once was a day
when my spirit was pure
I was born with an innocence
but for the blackness, there is no cure

There once was a day
when I felt I had worth
you used and abused me
your presence had such girth

You took me in your room
you ripped off my clothes
you told me to enjoy it
but I froze, from my head to my toes

You didn't seem to care
that I was a little girl
who just needed your love
and should have been valued like a pearl

I wasn't like the others
you shamed me to the core
I was afraid of what was lurking
what did you have to do that for

It all started with a hug
and I didn't seem to flinch
I reveled in the attention
but the hug was followed by a pinch

You took away everything
the most priceless was my heart
that invisible wall of safety
you ripped it all apart

You took away my childhood
my virginity you'll always have
I had no choice so why is it
that I'm the one who feels bad

I took you at your word
that you wouldn't harm me
I was a fool to believe you
I just want to be free

Free of the memories
free of the shame
free of the fear
and free of the blame.