It feels so hopeless,
but you don’t give up,
you can't let them down,
you need to reach your goal.

You spend hours thinking,
of ways to reach your goal,
you wonder how you got here,
you wonder why you came to be.

You cry at that thought,
your so far away,
you don’t want to wait,
but there is nothing you can do, or say.

You will wait forever,
for as long as it takes,
you keep pressing on,
even when you feel dead, and when your awake.

You keep believing,
you keep praying,
you wonder if he listens,
you wonder if he'll answer.

You wonder if he'll let you,
you wonder if he'll send you,
you wonder if you have to do something first,
and you keep on praying.

These things I can not answer,
only try and understand, and let him do his work,
but I wont give up,
and I will keep going on.

You start to worry and fear,
you want to stop your thoughts,
the fear of what might happen,
and you let the door hit you on your way out.

You take a look at yourself,
and clench your eyes shut,
scared and disgust of what is beheld in front of you,
you want to scream out loud.

You feel like your running in circles,
and you want to run straight,
but the path your on,
is now bent and broken.

You feel contorted and mangled,
and you fear for yourself,
you look at the stars and you look at the moon,
and you wonder how your in the same world.

You don’t want to believe it,
yet you can't break reality,
so you slip into your fantasy,
and now your stuck.

You want to break free,
she is out there,
while your trapped in a cage,
you scream so loud, yet nothing comes out, just a whisper, and she hears you.

You want to be free,
and so does she,
both trapped in worlds,
where you can't be free.

But she is free,
and is looking for your key,
because you have hers,
and you just need to unlock the door to her heart.

You had it all along,
you thought you had to look,
and now you see,
how could that be?

But is it worth it?
If stuck and sick,
puking up blood,
oh life is full of shit.

You can't bare it no longer,
fighting through lies,
you just want it to end,
and collapse in grass.

You've heard to much,
seen to little,
but your eyes are so heavy,
just close them for a bit.

You lie there all still,
and nestled in your dreams,
all you picture is her,
dancing in your themes.

You float on clouds,
you swim through grass,
you climb up trees,
and you hold her hands.

But then you wake up and remember,
wishing you didn't,
it was only a dream,
and now reality sets in.

You hate yourself more and more each day,
while as it passes by,
you love her more and more each day,
where does life change, end?

But again you push on,
and you throw the lies aside,
shoving them away,
making the path clear, and in sight.

But now you must go,
to keep on fighting,
what will happen?
Nobody knows...