i can totally understand where you are coming from. I as put into 4 hospitals for all that and i took seroquel and risrpdal, and zoloft, and now i'm on geodon. i'm also bipolar too. And odd and ,hyperactive, and borderline personality disorder, and adhd and all that bullshit. Ijust got out of the hospital 5 months ago. But it's hard to try to stop isn't it? i'm not . not anytime soon.