I'm not gonna tell you, you should cut yourself, but rather just find other ways of hurting yourself to feel better, but i dont advice you to hurt yourself. Cutting does hurt, but then you get used to it after a while, If you fear sharp things,(blades, try using sharp wood, but u have to be careful not to make splinters. I've been cutting myself since i was 7 years old, so this is why im used to it, but thats doesn't mean to say it doesn't hurt, becasue it does, a lot for that matter. I've been in hospital many times, all caused from cutting, i came close to dying many times, but i didn't guess coz God has a plan for my life so he keeps me alive, and it's the same for you, thats why you don't have courage enough to pick up a blade. This is a good thing actually. What you should do, is to find people who harm themselves and involve yourself with them, im not saying go join them in cutting themselves, just have them to talk to, coz that will help you a lot. I have a few friends who harm themselves, so we talk a lot, to help each other, we stand by each other when times get really tough, we are there to help each other to try and stop, but that isn't an easy task to achieve, so we help each other to cope with, stress, pain, frustration, anger and all that, this helps to calm us down. Just find some people in the same boat as you, who understand why you feel how you feel, think what you think. A lot of people are going to judge you through life if they find out u feel suicidal, u can be blackmailed by people who you tell how you feel, so choose wisely who you tell. Don't just tell anyone just because they harm themselves, because they can use that against you to their advantage and you don't need that. You are or were just 12 when u wrote this, you have your whole life ahead of you, Please don't try an kill yourself, but i understand why you would want to, because i feel like that a lot, but i just avoid the thought and think other things, but i talk to my friends so they can help me, even though it's just 3 of us, we really help each other very much.

wow you're only twelve? the thing about it is (as you probay know) once you start, its so hard to stop. Everytime i SI i go deeper and deeper and one day i will just bleed to death ( becasue i m stupid and lock myself in rooms) but no I am actually envious of you for not picking up that blade and if you have, then you have and theres nothing i can do, but tell you that your story made me wish i could see my arms without the brands if invented for them......I hope you still choose number 1, because even though you want to die now, in a little while you wont be able to wait to live!!!!!

I'm going to be all older-sister/motherly and say this. You are twelve. I'm fifteen, and have wasted approximately five years of my life hurting myself. Don't do it. I know it's difficult to tell someone that it hurts inside, in your mind. I was too much of a coward to do it. Please, don't make my mistake. Tell your mum, your dad, a sibling, a friend you trust. Talk to your councilor at school. These people are there to help you. You've got so much of your life ahead of you. I don't want to have to think that someday you'll be typing something like this, telling someone else not to do the same stupid thing you've done. Just ask for help. It'll all feel so much better, I promise. E-mail me and we can talk, if you want. You can talk to me if you're afraid to talk to a friend or parent. Just...don't cut or SI, ok? It's not a good thing.

i fell the same way until a few days ago i cut for the first time on my hip it was this small _____ but i am scared to do it on my arm i would relly like to talk to you email me at mlsb1105#aol.com if you can thanks we have alot in comen with feelings

This reminds me of how I felt when I was twelve. I must say, you have an impressive vocabulary for someone your age. Most adults only want to control and they don't want to take the time to try to understand how people like us feel. I have been struggling with self-injury since I was 6 years old. If you can keep yourself from the razor from as long as you can, it would be something I could never aspire to achieve. You still have a chance to escape this addiction. Since I was 6, death was practically the only thing that I ever thought about, and suicide was in my dreams. I'm not saying that I know exactly how you feel, but I think I have a pretty good idea. I respect you for taking into account how your family and other loved ones would feel if you took your own life, that is something that most people don't think of and they selfishly leave their loved ones behind. Those who love you have such high hopes for you, and they want you to grow up and be happy. Happiness will not come and easier if you give in to the razor. Please stay safe. :) *~Luna~*

hey..ive been cutting for over a year its not worth doing..please dont do it..i know how you feel because i was always to scared to do it and then i started and after that i couldnt stop..ive been in 3 hospitals because of it. its so hard to stop once you start!..i wish i had never started doing it in the first place..im begging you not to do it..if you need someone to talk to im here for you

Please don't start cutting. I was 11, and now i'm 19, and still doing it. When I was younger I was affraid to cut on my arms so I would cut my leggs, and now I'm not affraid anymore. Its not worth messin your life over. Once you start, you cant stop. (or its very hard to)..

Hope this isn't too late. I agree with all the other people who have commented. I started cutting when I was twelve. (I'm only 13 now.) I remember being scared to pick up the blade, so I started off with scratches. But, as they say, the cuts just get deeper and deeper, until you're dripping blood and can't make it stop. I used to think it was cool. I used to think I didn't rely on it. But all that was just denial. SI is very similar to drug addiction. people always warn youth to avoid drugs, because you'll develop an addiction. Well, it's the same with cutting, except there's no coalition that warns young people the hazards of cutting. I'm not going to lie and say that cutting doesn't help me feel better. It does. But it's only a short relief, before the mental anguish, sadness, loneliness, frustration, and anger come back to haunt me. (Again, much like a drug.) In addition, not only do the problems come back, they triple in intensity, because you realise you're addicted to SI. It just causes many more problems than it fixes. I hope you have the strength to control yourself before things get out of hand. Best wishes.

I'm not going to say that SI'ing is bad, but... It can take you over, for any amount of time. I think it could potentially ruin lives... I recently started writing in a journal and talking with one of my friends who used to SI, and it weakened my desire to do it a little... Talking with people helps, but you've got so much ahead of you, I wouldn't want that to be ruined...