It was one night when i was in my room mad at my mom, mad at the world. I went to go talk to my sister to straighten all this out but she blew me off, which she had never done that before. So after that I went into my kitchen searching for something to cut my self with.(this was my first time ever doing it)I stummbled across some razor blades I went into my room and laid the razor on my left wrist it cut so smooth, it didnt even hurt after I did it once I wanted more so I did it as my heart desired. When i was at school people would see me and the cuts and just would stare, that made me mad so i would do it more and more. then one night I was cutting so deep so much blood everywhere I clapsed on the floor, I guess my mom heard the slam. The next night I was in the hospital. I try not to do it as much, its just so hard. I just can't stop I need it. It feels like me and razors have formed a bond it needs me and I need it.

your story sounds tuff. i know how you are feeling i am 21 and i started when i was your age. i hated my self , thought i was not skinny enough...i took it all out on myself and htought i wasent good enough for anything. i found this place though. IT REALLY DID ALOT they go 50% you have to go the other 50%. it is like they get inside your brain and sorta figuire you out. anyways go check that out. wendy lader is the nicest lady and the program is awesome. good luck call this number every night if you have to....i did. know what i havent injured my self in 3 years now.

Wow. I know how it feels to have a razor as your friend. I used to cut all the time. I was open about it too. I am also currently open about how I'm bisexual, no one seems to care. But... I know how it feels to be made fun of, ignored, blahblah. I would cry all the time, cut, whatever to release the pain. My mom even sent me to Therapy, they didn't find out anything because I never talked. :P I don't really like talking to people, but oh well.. I hope you become happy, I am, well sort of... Sincerely, Connor

Hey i know how ya feel.i starting cutting myself when i was 13 and im now 15.i was getting builled alot so i heard from some classmates that cutting takes away the pain so i was like hey maybe ill try that thinking only once but i got addicted.its still hard for me not to wanna cut.sometimes i still do but most of the time i dont.

You cant help others unless you help yourself.

hey alex! i read your comments and found that i could really relate to your life. it made me feel better knowing that someone else feels the same way i do! Thanks so much for putting your feelings out there for others to read. i know it can be scary

Hi, i only really cut myself when im really angry or upset about something. I hadnt done it 4 a while but recently ive been really bad again. I CANT tell my parents, i feel ashamed. They hav always been good to me and i dont really have much to complain about. They would be so upset and disappointed if they found out so i cant tell anyone...this is the only way anyone can know.

Same here. I am 14 i just started cutting when i was 13. My parents dont know. know one knows but me and my sharp silver friend. but unlike u i am to scared to accept therapy. i am to scared to ask my parents for help. they are the problem. Though the reasons u cut may b different then me, we should try to get help. No one should have to suffer alone.

omg thats so sad! I kinda cut myself when im angry at sumthin and would hate doin it, but after reading this, im NEVER going 2 do it again.

I understand what you are saying Alex I do the same thing

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I understand how you feel; I'm 13, a cutter, I have an eating disorder, and I'm bisexual. It feels as though I'm looking through a mirror when I read you're story. It was very infomative.