I'm sorry that you are in such pain. It must be terrible and it sound intolerable. However, there is help out there. Have you thought about checking yourself into a hospital or recovery center? There are some really nice ones out there. Also, maybe just seeing a therapist may help. Drugs are also wonderful, and I mean anti-depressents. Getting help does not mean that you will have to stop SI right away and the therapist should not tell you to stop either. Its just nice to have someone to listen to you who is not there to tell you what to do, just to listen. Don't give up so easily on life, you're stronger than you think!

wow what a story! i thank you for sharing, because now i know i'm not alone. I cut to but unfortunatly i have to get help. thanx again. if you want to talk my IM and e-mail is Jeweliajones@aol.com

hi im tanya..im 25 years old i have been cutting myself since i was 12yrs!! my wrist are so scared...i use razor blades and as the yrs gone on the deeper i go...i almost died last year...i cut so deep and was rushed to the er and put in s-5!!! it was bad...know i only do it when im really upset...i suffer from panic, aniexy, manic depression ADD and bipolar disorder oh and boarder line personitity!!! i have alot of health issues!! my mother had just found out about my self multication last year...i always wondered where she was and why she never notices for 13 years!!! i fot so far that i would cut my neck and my face when i couldnt find a spot on my wrist!!! i was wondering why u started to do this to urself??? i do it to let the bleed the pain out of my heart... it makes me feel high!!! like this is the way life is and this is how life is going ans suppose to be!! i hate it, but sometimes i cant help it...i need to let the pain out all the pain my father has caused me and everyother person in my life!!! if i was to count the scares on my wrist my face my neck my stomach and my legs i would have about 5,ooo scares!! and they are deep scares...know i have to live with the way i look everyday..im enbarrrsed i ahte the way i look, but yet i cant stop the cutting!!! i read ur story and it is sad..i want to help people so they dont end up like me!!! right now im getting help for all my problems...the last time i had cut was about 2 months ago...i use to do it every day maybe 3 or 4 times a day..so im making a good effet!!well girl if u ever need to talk just email me u have to email me to my my space account ok!!! im always hear to listen to people..i hope u get well

Hi Alice, my name's Caitlin. I'm 13 years old and have been cutting and burning since I was 9. I just wanted to tell you that I understand how addictive SI-ing is and I want you to know that if you want to stop, it will take all the dedication you posess. If you don't, I'm not going to blame you for anything or put you down for something we both do. Something you should know though, depending on how deep it is, that burn could take a while to go away. I burned more than a month ago and its still an open wound. Best of Luck to you, Caitlin

don't worry, you're not the only one. what you just wrote sounds like an exerpt from my mind. i cut too, and i know it's sick and wrong and just crazy for a person to put blade to flesh and press, but i can't live without that glorious feeling. to see the scars is a reminder of how worthless i am. how much i deserve to die.