I TOTALLY AGREE WITH YOU, BUT YOU HAVE TO REALIZE AND UNDERSTAND THAT YOU CAN NEVER EVER TOTALLY UNDERSTAND WHERE HE IS COMING FROM AND ACTUALLY FEEL UNLESS YOU ARE A CUTTER YOURSELF OR DEAL WITH SEVER EMOTION PROBLEMS. TRUST ME ON THAT. I HAVE BEEN A CUTTER FOR 6 YEARS OR SO. NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU LEARN, STUDY OR WHATEVER, DOCTORS, PARENTS, THERAPIST. YOU WILL NEVER TOTALLY UNDERSTAND WHAT HE OR I AM ACTUALLY GOING THROUGH IN THE HEAD AND THINKING. YOU COULD TRY TO AND THINK YOU UNDERSTAND YOU UNFORTUNATELY NEVER WILL. I OR SOMETIMES WE WISH YOU COULD, BUT IT JUST WON'T HAPPEN. WHICH REALLY SUCKS BECAUSE I COULD YOU ALL THE HELP RIGH NOW I CAN GET. THANKS FOR LISTENING. LASTELY MY MOM LIKE YOU IT SEEMS IS TOTALLY COMITTED TO HELPING ME ANYWAY SHE CAN. SHE DOES ALOT FOR ME. SHE IS TOTALLY AMAZING, BUT IT IS JUST NOT THE SAME. THIS IS WHAT I KNOW RIGHT NOW TO HELP MYSELF AT THAT POINT, I KNOW IT IS WRONG, BUT RIGHT NOW AT THIS MOMENT CUTTING MYSELF IS GOING TO CALM ME DOWN, RELAXE ME, AND HELP ME. UNTIL I KNOW DIFFERENTLY OR JUST AS GOOD AND FAST, THIS IS WHAT HELPS. I DO AND I DON'T WANT TO STOP BECAUSE THIS IS WHAT I AM USE TO AND DONE FOR THE LONGEST TIME. THINK SMOKING IS HARD AS HELL AND IMPOSSIBLE TO QUIT, THAT IS NOTHING COMPARED TO CUTTING. I ALSO SMOKE AS WELL. PETE

My wish for you is to try to understand that sometimes how we feel is not always possible to put into words, talking sometimes doesn't releive the pain in a way that SI can, this doesn't make it right and it can seem a bit hard to understand, when your little guy can find an outlet, someway to talk to you on your level he will, you cant 'make' anyone talk, I have been married to someone for twelve years and she still finds it hard to explain why she is so self destructive sometimes. As hard as it is try to work on his level and not give him the impression you want him to see things through your perspective. Email if you like and we'll talk jaypressler@msn.com Jay