I was captivated by your story. I cannot say that I know how you feel because it's impossible. But I know how it is to not be able to forgive myself. You should't be living with those feelings. Please, let yourself make mistakes. Maybe it was meant to happen. Thank you for your inspiring words as I'm also struggling with SI. Good luck

thank you so much for writing your story. i'm still only 17, but i'm trying so hard to quit cutting. i'm getting better at it, but it is so hard. it's nice to know that there is someone else out there that understands. especially about being an aunt and wanting to be there for your nieces/nephews. i have 8. again, thank you. good luck with everything :)